our authentic values are revealed – not by what we preach – but by what we do when no one’s looking
I have 2 things in common with Jesus Christ – a Jewish mother and an absent father. But for me, rather than sacrificing myself to vanquish the tyranny of Satan and restoring the Holy Grail to the consciousness of mankind, they were perfect ingredients for me to grow up as rather a spoiled brat.
Being a ‘special case’ and getting my own way at any cost did not lead me to my own holy grail. Up until about 40 years ago, I was becoming a successful but increasingly cynical, self-destructive, ego-centric advertising executive and copywriter. Up until I had a series of spiritual ‘wake-ups’. Suddenly and happily I found a new state of being.
I then made a vow that if I could not live in and from this ‘thing’ I had found inside myself – I would not stay alive on this planet . Labelling this ‘thing’; ‘happiness’, is a risible understatement. Benign schizophrenia is more accurate. There are now 2 very distinctly different ‘mes’ jostling side-by-side for a share of voice and influence over my life.
Sadly for the spoiled brat in me, the only way to keep this ‘thing’ alive and kicking is to selflessly serve my fellow space travellers a lot more than I had ever done before. The more I engage with people in an empowering way and share the essence of who I have grown into, the more I am rewarded and nourished inside by my ‘thing’. I am now hopelessly addicted to witnessing other people breakthrough the same prison bars that kept my real potential and possibility locked away in the oubliette.
Apart from realising my most heartfelt dreams, nothing much has changed. I am still totally focused on making myself as stupidly happy as I can – but in order to achieve this, it behoves me to be utterly selfish in an utterly selfless way.
Ain’t life a bitch?
Here’s a few videos about my relationship with my horses. Followed by another of my deepest passions: the hidden secrets of William Shakespeare.
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